Howard Lawrence Mars Landing Lyrics

How long?
Who's there?
It's cold
I'm scared
We torched streets together but felt so alone
Always in trouble--we tripped on our own
Everyone predicting we'd barely survive
But we were not prepared for this...
Why?

Red in my eyes
Dust in my ears
Here I can taste it
The loss of innocent years
And now I'm saying things I don't really mean
Like how much better I am
Is all this a dream?

The summers here are hot enough to melt glass
But when the sun goes down my sense of relief fades fast
...it never lasts
Stretching new limits I'm out of control
Choking off this boredom with drugs and rock n' roll
If word got out that I was running sideways and confused
I'd never hear the end of it--no one has a clue

Capturing time
Pictures for you
No one to harm now
Just a cool ocean view
So why'd I come this far to keep us alive?
Too many people were calling your name
When you were calling mine

My best ideas have been rejected countless times
They demonize my choices expecting I'll act in kind
...well that ain't kind
Why can't they see I'm fighting back tears?
I landed on this side of Mars to placate my fears
The captain's advice I squander every day
When a man rolls the dice the child drifts away

This frightening idea occurs to me
I pray in the dark to a God I'll never see
So here's my confession to those keeping score
The truth about Mars?
She's taught me to love more

Pinned to the wall I learned to fight
Echoes in the distance restore me at night
You caught me when I fell--when my heart was burning
When I get back will the world still be turning?